Missing someone, but not being able to do anything about it.
I'm sure everyone knows that feeling. How about..
Knowing that you're going to miss someone when you leave, but not knowing what to do about it ...except wait in dread.
Example 1: You're doing something...you've just gotten the hang of it, you enjoy doing it. When suddenly someone comes up to you and says:" Stop doing it, leave it. Never go back to it." You have to obey, it's not up to you, it's not your choice.
People normally ask me: “How does it feel? Having to move around constantly?"
I've been to beautiful places...I've seen beautiful people, beautiful things..
but my answer to this questions has always been "I don't like it".
Modification of Example 1: You've moved to a new country, new school. new everything. You've just gotten used to the system, and you've made some wonderful friends.Day by day, you fall in love with the country . Until suddenly you realise... it's time for you to leave, time for you to go somewhere else, time for you to put down everything you had at the moment.... and adjust to the new surroundings again.
The pain isn't within the missing itself, it's the fear of never ever being able to go back to the thing you miss.
No matter how much I " don't " like moving around so often, I've never resented it.. because if I didn't, I wouldn't have been able to meet the things I love currently. I love the serenity and peacefulness of Australia; I love the warmth and generosity my friends give me everyday over here.
I guess.. at the end of the day, it's just the beautiful memories that you get to keep.
I'm going to stop counting down from today on wards, stop at 96 days.
Instead, I'll focus on making the most out of time I have here:) It's the present that matters so much more.
You see... this goes for everyone. Even if you don't physically move countries, things change around you. There are things that you will keep, things that you will miss, things that you eventually have to give up forever.
But.. its okay. You get to keep the beautiful memories to yourself , and bring them everywhere with you no matter where you are... forever and ever...<3
Have a wonderful day!!:D I hope you're not sick like I am...:(