Saturday, 25 July 2015

Love myself a little more

You might describe life as the beginning of a journey, a roller coaster ride perhaps.

Or you might perceive it as a running river that never turns back.




For what we know, nobody's life is perfect. Everyone has times when they feel as if agony and sadness has thwarted their last tread of hope.

All these emotions are okay. It's okay to be anxious, to be jealous, to be bitter. As long as we don't act upon those emotions impulsively.

It's all a little unfair. We can't control our feelings but we have to control how we respond and react to those emotions. So by all means, vent if out if you're mad, cry it out if you're upset.



When emotions start overwhelming me, I get into these different stages of frustration.

And then those killer thoughts start swarming in. Thoughts of self doubt. Which go hand in hand with self blame.

My pet parrot died a few years ago. It may sound almost silly to you, but that was probably the most painful and heart wrenching moment I've experienced. Maybe it was because I saw her crumble and fall from the tree house specially built for her, spitting blood everywhere. Or maybe it was because of the one last chirp she gave me while I held her towards my heart for the last time. I felt so so helpless,  everything was too late and I just couldn't accept everything that happened in that split second... until the house grew so so quiet and cold without her presence

So there you go. One part of me was hating myself for not being able to prevent that from happening, and the other part of myself was judging my sensitivity and the mental pain I wasn't able to cope with. And all these thoughts just made everything worse.


So never ever let yourself reach the stage where you are self attacking, instead we have to learn how to heal our pattern of self blame. How to change the way we relate to those emotions.

If I hadn't blamed my self for what had happened, if I had let myself taken the time to grieve and be upset, I would have freed myself earlier... I would have loved myself a little more...



It's just the way you look at it, and the way you cope with it.


At the end of the day, you would have hoped to overcome your share of obstacles and turmoils but at the same time, experienced the best of all things to it's fullest.



And that's all that matters when you get down from that roller coaster ride.


 Just love yourself a little more x

Written with love,
June


34 comments:

  1. nice post..thanks for sharing
    kisses

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  3. Nothing to really say - thanks for sharing this.

    Lizzie Dripping

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  5. Very relatable for me, especially about a pet dying. :(

    xoxo Morning

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  6. Oh this is heartbreakingly sweet. I know self doubt is the biggest killer, we have to give ourselves time.

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    1. Yea true, if we can't trust ourselves who else can we trust?
      Thank you Areeba :)

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  7. Great post! I also have those moments, everybody does. But it makes me feel better knowing that it will pass. The pain will pass and I will be able to enjoy the beauty of the world again. And I'm so sorry for you and your parrot. It's not at all silly to grieve over animals that are close to our hearts.

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    1. Thank you for your comment! It does feel better knowing that time will eventually heal those pains. There's too much beauty in this world for us to not waste x

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  8. Beautiful.

    I love your writing style.

    I'm very sorry about your parrot

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  9. such a wonderful post :)) enjoy your day!

    mfashionfreak♥blog

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    1. You too! :) Thanks for dropping by.

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  10. Very nice post, true :) I stay :)

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  12. Nothing will ever be perfect but it might just get better.

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    1. Yes, it eventually will. Thank you :)

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  13. What a beautiful post, your writing style is wonderful. Just This Teenager x

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  14. time will heal, hope you stay strong! :( i'm so sorry about your parrot. i can't imagine how it feels to lose a pet.. i have two dogs myself :(

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  15. Beautifully written.. Life is indeed like a roller coaster, there's always ups and downs... Hope you are feeling better now... xoxo

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  16. If you don't like your situation, change it. If you can't change your situation, change your attitude. I think that these words are a great way to live by! Thank you for sharing this post!

    -smilesifyXO
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  17. You write quite well, and I hope you are feeling much better today...

    besos,
    M
    The Flower Duet

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  18. You have such talent to be able to put such raw emotions and experiences into beautifully crafted words. The first time I read this I cried because of how relevant it was to me at the time but now it just gives me assurance that we all go through these tough times and don't have to deal with them on our own <3
    Missing you,
    Tshi1

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  19. very inspiring post :) thank you for sharing <3

    xx, The Dauntless Girl

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