My attempts to write a meaningful blog post for the past few weeks have failed. It usually ends up with me hopping from one topic or another or just generating countless uncertainties.
So here I am, writing something out from my own experiences. You might know different..or even better. But this is just my personal point of view.
It wasn't too hard to approach anyone. We would openly talk about feminine stuff like who and who had their period that week , menstrual cramps, etc... When it came to talking about boys, we were pretty cool with it though most of us didn't have much experience. Most conversations regarding that topic revolved around hot actors from blockbuster movies or just guys we've never met before but heard lot's about. I don't know if any of us craved for an actual relationship, but what I'm certain about is that we definitely didn't physically show it.
I remember once after the social/dance , someone told me, " Girls become mean to each other when guys come into the scene.".
For some reason, I considered boy girl relationships happening then slightly " odd". I mean...how well will it work out if you don't see each other often. But that was the least of our worries. After some "not so good' encounters, my really close friend and I vowed that we wouldn't get ourselves involved in high school relationships we weren't ready for.
It is a proven fact that girls gossip a lot. I gossip. And friendship problems were caused mainly due to that. We worry about not being able to fit in, not being able to be accepted by the other girls. Oh yea.. and I think negative body images can sometimes come along with that.
In general I loved my single gender school. It made me a more confident person with much more self belief, not having to worry about unnecessary stuff. Not only that, I think I've made some lifelong friends in that all girls environment. :)
If any of you are reading this, the teddy bear that you guys gave me is well looked after <3
And then I move into a new school .... and it's not single-sexed.
I see couples walking around the school hand in close embrace. I see guys and girls talking to each other so close that it is at kissing distance. I see guys and girls texting each other love hearts when they are obviously not in a relationship.
I know this is normal, but I feel awkward with all this flirting going around.
But I must say, it's more lively here. We have more interesting class discussions with both genders expressing their opinions. Girls and guys don't necessarily agree on the same thing, and that's what makes it fun.
It's been three months since the move and I'm still worrying about which table to sit at lunch, who to talk to in class, who I partner up to do projects, who I should just avoid totally ... ahaha. It's been a frenzy...this whole transitioning in school. But I'm slowly getting used to it, I'm slowly working my way around with guys.
Oh well.. I don't have any other option do I?;)
Thank you for reading:)
Do comment if you have anything you want to say :)
Written with love.